As I travel deeper into uncharted territory leading my errant cast of characters towards their fate, I continue to impress myself with my determination and will to succeed.
I am very pleased to say that I am blessed with an overwhelming desire to crack on in the present time, rather than namby pamby around attempting to analyse the past. I know some people might say it has taken me a long time to reach this stage in my life, but I don’t talk to those people anymore.
I think this new found belief in myself may be something to do with that ticking time bomb that is my age. I am aware it could go off at any time, so I need to get a move on. As Captain James T. Kirk said “You either believe in yourself or you don’t” and I need to take that leap of faith now and finish this book that has been rattling around my head for too long.
I am so close now and am also acutely aware that the competition is fierce. So many younger writers out there, whose minds positively ooze creativity and their thoughts untinged by negativity.
Everywhere I go I am surrounded by bright, young things whose uncluttered minds are void of any emotional baggage. Cruising through their unfettered lives using high spec technology, operated by a flurry of fingers and thumbs.
Nonetheless I am pleased that my mind is gradually clearing with each outpouring of words on to my hard drive. I am revisiting Chapter 13, again, and I am confident that I know where all my characters are finally headed. So despite the fact that I have floaters in my left eye, irritating little buggers they are too, I am definitely beginning to see more clearly now.