Yeah … I guess you are all thinking that I have dropped off the face of the earth … yet again. This bad blogger has drifted off into cyberspace without a by-your-leave and so soon after I blogged promising that I would never to let Lost Blogs drift again. The fact is that the last week has been a struggle for me. I have been battling with the grieving process and as we all know, it is far from easy.
Over the last two months words have positively oozed from my fingertips. I have been writing feverishly, thinking that my writers blocky days had finally gone. I was going to finish my novel in super quick time. Normally, I can write myself through super shitty times but, once again, I have been consumed by that nasty fog that blights the creative train of thought and it is going to take me time to unblock.
Yesterday I watched a year’s worth of videos featuring the late, great Dave Allen.
Dave Allen was one of the best comedians I have ever known. I never missed a Dave Allen show years ago and he made me laugh yesterday, for the first time in over a week. His catchphrase at the end of every show was “Goodnight, thank you, and may your God go with you”. He boasted that he was a religious sceptic. I can adhere to that.
I was bought up in a Church of England stronghold. When my Father died, I was away at boarding school. I was floundering around trying to come to terms with his death and decided I wanted to become a Roman Catholic. After attending a few Catholic services, I found I was no nearer coming to terms with anything, let alone my Father’s death. Since then I have been, like Dave Allen, a religious sceptic. I want to believe, but I cannot. Too many dire events happen in this world for me to believe that there is timeless individual overseeing what happens to our lives. Coming to terms with death, surely, is the ultimate test, whether you believe in Allah, Buddha, God or whoever.
If you do believe in one of the deities, then I am very glad that you do because, maybe you can make sense of it all, because I sure as hell can’t.