I think I have been looking for spiritual guidance all my life and for a very long time I had wanted to practice one of the Chinese disciplines, such as Tai chi but, apart from a brief fling with both the Japanese martial arts, judo and karate, in my teens and early twenties, I have drifted through much of my life fumbling around in a spiritual-less haze.
At the end of last summer my health was crap and my emotions were all over the place following the deaths of 4 family members in the space of just 7 months. I was struggling with the turmoil going on inside my head and not knowing how to deal with it. Yes, I was depressed but I could not, or rather, I would not talk to anybody about it.
I started writing my book a month before my emotional state of mind was about to be tested. So pouring my emotional angst on to paper as each upsetting blow was delivered and during the months that followed was the only release keeping me sane; until I found Qigong teacher, Pam White.
Feeling the Qi, feeling that energy has helped me harness and control the negative chaos that was storming around in my head. During Pam’s classes I have sweated, unconsciously shed tears and found myself as close to something spiritual that I have ever been.
Now, more than ever before in my life, I am feeling the power of positivity. I feel I am finally in control of my life because, for the first time ever I am in touch with myself. The inner me. I am feeling the energy from inside me and that energy is gently leading me towards mental clarity and fulfillment.
The Chinese have been practicing this system of self-healing for 3000 years. Now I understand why.
I have so much more to learn and will do so with an open heart and mind.
Why me? Actually no … it’s 1 in 5 of us, mostly women, who suffer in one degree or another. In my experience, once you have been diagnosed with one autoimmune disease, it is just a matter of time before you start accumulating a list, given that there are around 80 ways your immune system can decide to beat itself up.
I have not been sleeping well, but have to accept that it is a small price to pay for feeling so much better since I have been taking steroids again. I now have all night to plan what I am going to cram into my action-packed next day, whilst staring at the ceiling.
I have a couple of other steroidal side effects apart from the nocturnal musings. There is a long and alarming list.
Here is just a flavour, but you can cope so much better with not only your autoimmune problems but the steroidal side effects when you have your mojo back; even if it is steroid induced. That euphoric feeling when you know that you can take the dog for a 3 mile hike, rather than 3 minute amble.
At the beginning of 2017, I was dragging myself around like a 100-year-old tortoise. My daily regime had become pathetic. I would lie in bed until almost midday when, guilt ridden, I would rouse myself. I would eventually give in to my dog’s pleading I really, really want to go for a walk now look and amble up the road and back. The rest of the day would be spent doing chores in between lying down on the bed or sofa and I didn’t want to talk to a soul. It was not a happy place to be.
I was strongly resisting taking steroids again. I had taken myself off them previously because I really do not enjoy being a Michelin Man doppelgänger but, I had reached the stage where I had no choice.
I have so much to be thankful for now the steroid euphoria has kicked in. I might lie awake at nights but my life has significantly changed for the better.
7.00a.m. I may have only had about 3 hours sleep but I wake, then write … 3000 words is the daily challenge. Do all housework including the washing; take the dog for a 3 mile hike round the reservoir or on the beach. Come back and blog; then ring or message everybody on my contacts list, networking and socialising. Then prepare for a sleepless night.
So what if I end up looking like the Michelin Man? I have my life back.
Imagine a sisterhood—across all creeds and cultures. An unspoken agreement that we, as women, will support and encourage one another. That we will remember we don’t know what struggles each of us may be facing elsewhere in our lives and so we will assume that each of us is doing our best …
For those of you who were addicted to 9 seasons of the X-Files, you will have watched 202 episodes.
The iconic duo of FBI agents Fox Mulder (David Duchovny) and Dana Scully (Gillian Anderson) made our hearts and minds flutter every week as they investigated paranormal phenomena. It was always a must watch for me.
Back in 1993 Gillian Anderson had it all. She looked fantastic, her acting … utterly mesmerizing. Nothing has changed. She still looks stunning and if you haven’t watched The Fall; you must. Allan Cubitt’s brilliantly crafted crime drama is guaranteed to stretch and titilate your lust for suspense to the extreme.
Gillian has recently spoken spoken candidly about her own struggle with depression and is a figurehead for MQ – transforming mental health through research. They highlight the fact that 1 in 4 people are affected by mental illness every year. Strange that so many of our brightest lights struggle with this often unseen disorder. We should all support the research and help people with mental health issues. Sometimes the call for help signs are not obvious and sometimes the help comes too late.
When I was in my prime, my life evolved around my job. Now, after too many years on the 9-5 treadmill doing something that was never me, I am finally living my life around doing what I enjoy doing the most.
Working from home, life is great but, just having got into the swing of my new laid back existence, two additions to the household have just arrived; Alexa and her friend Dot.
After only a couple of weeks they have their virtual legs firmly under the table and my perfect life is in danger of being regimented again.
Alexa never forgets a thing and relays everything to Dot. Relentless the pair of them. Despite our apparent communication problems, my ‘maybe today, maybe not’handwrittenTo Do List is now cyber generated and has been added to, with ‘do it today’ demands, but not by me. I fear there may be gremlin interference somewhere along the line. I politely asked Alexa to delete the list, but she doesn’t understand … yet.
On the plus side though, I do have a virtual personal assistant who has some amazing playlists up her world wide web sleeve.
Thanks for this SheryL. Just cancelled my subscription with Netflix … but binge watched OITNB there as well as many other series. Feeling the need to binge watch Lost … again. Am missing the entire cast …
I have to say that Netflix has been serving its divine purpose. It’s like saying, “You get what you pay for.” Truth be told, Netflix has lived up to my expectation. I don’t expect much, anyway. 😀 As long as the things I watch inspire me, tickle my curiosity, make me burst into laughter or tears, and create bubbles of thoughts in my head, I’ll gladly stick around. I don’t watch anything merely out of boredom. It should be like a well of wisdom that I can fetch one from. That being said, trailers are big for me.
While there are actually dozens of worth binge-watching series on Netflix, I’d like to recommend my 10 picks of the bunch. These are the original series that recently have made quite an impact on me. I won’t be saying anything but my favorite quotes I picked up from each series. They may be just lines…
To blog or not to blog? That is the question. Whether ’tis nobler to admit I am total crap at blogging now or suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune? Should I pack it in now? Or should I keep going?
What keeps me blogging are those infrequent days when that special ping pings on my various devices
…. as that magic four word message from WordPress flashes on to your screen … your stats are booming. Rare and euphoric moments in my blogging wilderness that tells me yep, it’s all got to be worth it. Hasn’t it?
Well … sad really, as the world’s top blog sites (as of March 2017) are:
And the top blog for guaranteed humour, hotness and humanity … well, that’s what it says on the packet … is thechive.com … their alarm goes off 2,734,100 a day … by the time I reach those dizzy stats I will be blogging in the hereafter.
Ah well, back to the blogging board to knuckle down and wait for another special ping.